We made it!

It’s currently 2:36 am in Beijing, China. Unfortunately, I’m wide awake. We got in our hotel about 5:30 yesterday after exactly 24 hours of traveling. It was absolutely exhausting. After our 12 hour flight from Chicago to Beijing in economy seating, my legs didn’t want to work and my brain didn’t ever want to take another flight again. We waited for awhile in the immigration line, waited for our bags, and then met the people who picked up the suitcase donations for the foster home. Again, thank you to everyone who donated! We were so happy to be able to make this donation.  In three hours from now, we’ll be able to eat breakfast at our hotel and then leave for the Great Wall of China. We’re very excited to see some of the culture and history of China.
 
As we were flying here on our long, long trip, we passed over the beautiful forests and ice of Canada and Alaska and the huge, snowy mountains of Siberia. Looking down at these landscapes made me so in awe of everything God has brought us through in this process. He has truly parted the seas of adoption paperwork, finances, travel, and difficulties so we can just walk on through and bring home our daughter.  I’m the type of person who worries a lot. I have this little doubt that creeps up and turns into a big pit of anxiety deep in my stomach. I can’t tell you how many times it has happened throughout our adoption process. It even happened around hour 11 yesterday in our flight! There’s a song that I’ve been listening to basically on repeat for the last few months called “My Lighthouse” by Rend Collective.  The lyrics that really hit me are:
 
In my wrestling and in my doubts
In my failures You won’t walk out
Your great love will lead me through
You are the peace in my troubled sea
In my silence you won’t let go
In the questions Your truth will hold
You’re great love will lead me through
You are the peace in my troubled sea…
 
It doesn’t matter how much I doubt or how much I worry, it does not change God’s truth.  In the postmodern, existential culture we live in, that’s hard for people to take. God’s truth is absolute; culture can’t change it, society can’t change it, politicians can't change it, and certainly my doubts won’t change it. It doesn’t matter how much I worry or doubt, God has orchestrated this adoption from the beginning of time. He has planned for Selah to be our daughter. In three days, she will be ours forever.